Real friends always have the ability to call you on your BullShit, when you need a sit your ass down moment. That is what happened to me today. I was complaining about a problem I have been having lately. After I got over my ego being bruised I realized that I needed to step up more and take more responsibility for my actions. I have been working on this more and more, but my conversation made me see how much work I have yet to do, its funny cause I had pretty much already come to the same conclusion a few days ago, but it was just having my shit called out made me mad and then I directly my anger at the true target, myself. I have so much more to learn about things going on around me and the things going on within me.
I have to deal with these pesky demons that plague me, and try to put my broken life back together. I guess hiding in the gym everyday doesn’t really cover it either, can’t build anything on a faulty foundation. So I struggle on trying to find the real me inside this house of cards that I have become. I hope all that matter can bear with me till I get my shit together.
I know I am not perfect; I am stubborn, arrogant, and just all too full of myself. I am pretty much what I am I needed to be to get alone in this world, but that doesn’t excuse my sins. I am working on things, so I apologize in advance for all the people who have to put up with me.
