Broken Mirrors

Real friends always have the ability to call you on your BullShit, when you need a sit your ass down moment.  That is what happened to me today. I was complaining about a problem I have been having lately.  After I got over my ego being bruised I realized that I needed to step up more and take more responsibility for my actions.  I have been working on this more and more, but my conversation made me see how much work I have yet to do, its funny cause I had pretty much already come to the same conclusion a few days ago, but it was just having my shit called out made me mad and then I directly my anger at the true target, myself.  I have so much more to learn about things going on around me and the things going on within me.    

 

I have to deal with these pesky demons that plague me, and try to put my broken life back together.  I guess hiding in the gym everyday doesn’t really cover it either, can’t build anything on a faulty foundation. So I struggle on trying to find the real me inside this house of cards that I have become.  I hope all that matter can bear with me till I get my shit together.

 

I know I am not perfect; I am stubborn, arrogant, and just all too full of myself.  I am pretty much what I am I needed to be to get alone in this world, but that doesn’t excuse my sins.   I am working on things, so I apologize in advance for all the people who have to put up with me.

Comments

[Mz Diamond]

WOW...Well as always your writing always touch me.
Everyone of us has our own demons to fight with wether we admit or not. There is no handbook for life, so you just have to work with what works for you. Dont change because people want you to or because you think they want you to, change because YOU feel YOU need to change and dont be so hard on yourself. Just pray...ask the Lord for guidance and have faith, things will workout.

Much Luv
Mz Diamond